6 months after the flood of 2010 and neighbors all around are rebuilding. Although I am happy for them and know their journey is still not easy, I find myself envious.
Emotionally, life is hard right now. Much harder than at first. It was easier to remain strong and optimistic in first weeks post flood. Now I am simply exhausted. I cannot seem to bring myself to go over to that house and take care of things I should.
Putting up the Christmas tree was sad for me last night. So many ornaments from my childhood, my mother and all my travels are gone. Some were older than me. Alyssa's stocking, the angel for the top of the tree, the advent calendar... I KNOW they are just things. It is still sad.
I just want this nightmare to be over, the bankruptcy, the uncertainty, the loneliness...
